Welcome, Internet dwellers. This is where I will share the ups and downs of my experience with motherhood as a single parent. I promise to be as transparent as a mutha on this thing. That said, I am 34 years old and I don't currently have a child but we're gonna roll the dice and … Continue reading And so it begins…
Raining On My Own Parade
Here's a pro tip: Don't tell a foster parent how they should feel about this process. A few weeks ago, I received the news that I would be upgrading from a Resource Family Home to a Prospective Adoption Home. In theory, this is a good thing. I no longer have to have three home inspections … Continue reading Raining On My Own Parade
What’s In A Name?
It's been a helluva month. The Terrible Twos™ are raging and were exacerbated by incoming molars and a cold that just won't quit. Tonight's tantrum du jour was regarding my inability to "open" my belly button 😑 I'm feeling very this... https://open.spotify.com/track/75JFxkI2RXiU7L9VXzMkle?si=292d7de674b145dc Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this … Continue reading What’s In A Name?
The Moms Are Not Alright
Over the past six months since the TPR hearing, I have been so grateful to be able to focus my attention on the normal Mom fears, and not the constant cloud of potential tragedy. Is he sleeping enough? Eating enough? Is it cool that he prefers to sleep on the floor as opposed to his … Continue reading The Moms Are Not Alright
Congratulations?
Last Friday, on LO's second birthday, parental rights were terminated for both birth parents. It's a strange sensation when something you've been manifesting for so long finally comes to fruition. I still don't think I've fully processed this new reality, even a week later. But here are the details to try and ground me... Father … Continue reading Congratulations?
New Year, Who Dis?
Baby turns 2 next week, the same day as his Father's court hearing to reinstate reunification services from the county in the morning and, if that isn't granted, the .26 hearing to terminate parental rights in the afternoon. Grounds for reinstating reunification services include: (1) a change in circumstance for the parent and (2) best … Continue reading New Year, Who Dis?
Pity Party of One
I just wanna throw this all down in one place for my own sanity and posterity so I remember what a fucking WARRIOR I was during the fight of my life. This month, the following people will be visiting my home as we prepare for the November hearing and continue to provide service's for the … Continue reading Pity Party of One
Traumarama Mama
I've been struggling lately with the treatment of acute vs. chronic trauma in our society. As many "social media psychologists" have wisely noted of late, we are all experiencing chronic trauma as we battle the ever-present undercurrent of a pandemic sprinkled with a global and local war on women, the impending doom of climate change, … Continue reading Traumarama Mama
Bittersweet Symphony
^Now I can't stop thinking about Cruel Intentions. Okay get serious, you guys, this post is HEAVY. Today, after nearly 18 months, the court terminated reunification services for both birth parents. While this is positive news, I don't feel like celebrating much because: There are still so many hurdles before adoption. Birth Father (BF) can … Continue reading Bittersweet Symphony
The Rambler
Lots to share. Prepare for a ramble... Latest Case Information Keeping this pretty dry. There has been SO much drama over the past few months and I don't feel comfortable sharing most of it here as our case remains open. Suffice to say I had to get the police involved at one point, but everyone … Continue reading The Rambler
Brave Love
I have no major updates, dear readers, but I thought I'd share the letter I recently wrote to the little one on the one-year anniversary of his placement in my home... While we still don't know what the future holds for our little family, you have embedded yourself into my heart, and there you will … Continue reading Brave Love
All the Single Mommies 